This is Rebecca and this is #herstory . Transparency #HappyMothersDay
Mothers Day can be a day of many mixed emotions for me. I’m grateful for my daughter Mikayla and how much of a reminder of Gods love and grace she is for me. Although she gives me such a great reason to celebrate, being a mom wasn’t always such a joy. At 18, after being a survivor of a kidnapping and sexual assault, I found myself pregnant. Although I went through with the pregnancy, after time passed I decided to give my son up for adoption. For years after that I ran from motherhood, battling with guilt and shame and when I became pregnant again in the future I continued to run from it by having a couple of abortions. At that point, as I came into the things of God I assumed I was too damaged and dirty to be a mom. Shortly after that, I got pregnant with Mikayla and I was SO fearful that I would wreck her life because shame told me I wasn’t good enough to be a mom. Over the past 10 years, God has always sent encouragement via strangers or loved ones to affirm me as a Mom and I had to realize that I am pretty amazing at it. Even now, as she lives full time with her Dad and Bonus Mom, I’m reminded that whether near or far, the full school year or only on Holidays I am still an amazing Mommy. To all the ladies who have a complicated journey to motherhood, I pray that The Lord affirms you as a Mom everyday and that no amount of shame, guilt, grief or doubt would lie to you telling you any different. Happy Mother’s Day to ALL the women. I hope you had amazing day ️.That’s #herstory so what’s yours?